dread of being alone...
dread of being independent...
dread of being e older sister...
dread of being a nobody...
dread of acting strong in front of others...
dread of not understanding my frenz...
dread of not knowing wad i wan...
dread of not knowing wad i m thinking...
dread of not knowing wad i m feeling...
dread of not knowing who i am...
dread of EVERYTHING!!!
@ 4/29/2007 10:31:00 PM
sian... sch damn boring sia... elective end early lor... only 1hr of lesson lor... dr yong teach de ma... sure will end early de... haha... chose e right elective... got test but is mcq de n is only 30mins... oso got a grpwork assignment... both score well den can pass le... some more out of 10lessons only need 2 attend 6lessons... yeah...
wed watch movie with mama, olivia, vin, don, mel, de wei n jun lin at the cathay... we watched 200 pounds... it's a nice movie... worth recommending if u wanna watch a comedy n abit of romance movie... u will not regret watching it de... e songs in e movie is nice too... e main actor is handsome n e main actress is beautiful too... o watch tis movie if u dun noe wad movie 2 watch... i oso wanna watch spiderman 3... watching frm e trailer seems nice...
yesterday went 2 chomp chomp wif ping n joy... was very hungry when we reached there... e joy la... took her medical report took so long... was suppose 2 meet 6pm de... but becoz she haven took her report so meet at 7pm instead... she took cab here n is her mum gif her cab fare de... so shuang...
we ordered lots of food lor... got hokkien mee, char kway tiao, satays, stingray, carrot cake, chicken wings n sugar cane... each of us took out 10bucks... den in e end we got 2 top up 50 cents more... not bad la... got 2 eat so much food... we eat like nobody business lor... so shiok... we managed 2 finish up all e food... aft eating... ping pack food 4 her family den we went home le...
2ml meeting aunt 2 go book chalet... hope tat e day i wanna book e chalet is available... *fingers cross*... if not haf 2 change another date le... aft booking will go meet mama... will be watching movie ba... not very sure... anyway... wanna go shopping lor... got e urge 2 buy things... last sat nv shop much... so 2ml go n shop all i wan... haha...
as long as there is fate... no matter how far we r apart with each other... we will still meet...
@ 4/27/2007 08:28:00 PM
dar n mi... pic taken in front of taka e fountain...
@ 4/22/2007 02:39:00 PM
back 2 sch liao... 2day is e 4th day of sch reopen... so sian lor... just hate 2 go back 2 sch... everyday e lesson e is boring... e fun part is getting 2 chit chat wif frenz... tis time e lecturers all very diff frm last yr... last yr e leturers more fun... tis sem e bio lecturer i dun really like lor... he is a foreigner... cant really hear his words lor... so blur... cant understand lor... den he tok so slow... funny thing is tat he can tok so slow n manage 2 end in time... wad sia... each time attend his lecture will feel like slping lor...
yst went our wif chris dar... we went 2 town... bought movie tickets at cine... we watched 'becoz i said so'... aft we bought e tickets we went 2 heeren 4 lunch... we ate e wonton mee there... not bad la... e honey red tea very bland... but e pearls is nice... we went back 2 cine n watched e movie... tis is a romantic comedy movie... quite nice la... went 2 orchard mrt station e popular aft e movie... went 2 used up my $10 voucher... bought alot of sationery...
dar n mi so boi liao lor... boi liao till we go c e assessment books of all those past yr o level papers... every subject tat we tok be4 we went 2 c... was like trying 2 recalling whether did we do tis ques, wad i choose 4 our compo writing n oso do we remember how 2 do ant... was fun dong it... haha... den we went home le... will be going out wif dar again... we manage 2 take a photo... nxt time i will bring my camera when going out wif frenz... trying 2 keep e photo as memories...
sch got organisne a chiang mai exchange trip... wanna go leh... coz seems fun... some more is going wif frenz lor... sure fun de... but mi scared parents dun allow mi go leh... e price is $950 tat include of everything... n is a 7days trip... abit ex la... well... haf e urge 2 go... sec sch regret not going 4 e korea trip liao... dun wish 2 regret again... hope ltr ask parents they will let mi go... *fingers cross*
is our distance getting further n further away? or it's just tat i m thinking too much?
@ 4/19/2007 09:11:00 PM
yst went picnic wif tania, bao bei, darrell, alex, bangz n spy... all say meet 9am at my hus... i woke up at 8.30am... damn early lor... i waited till 9am... den bao bai sms mi n say she just woke up lor... she will come asap... i carry on 2 wait... wait till 9.30am decided 2 call tania... coz think she haf not woke up... she really haf not wake up lor... sian...
finanlly until 10am somebody came... spy n alex came... bangz sms mi... say he just wake up lor.. wad sia... all late... but he will reach my hus at around 10.40am la... all rushing down lor... i expect alex will late n nv expect e rest will late lor... in e end we left hus at 12noon lor... we took bus 2 pasir ris... alight at downtown east there... den we walk in 2 e park...
walk n walk n walk... den suddenly got thunder sound... black clouds slowly came... den we knew it is going 2 rain lor... so we choose a spot near shelter de... spy very funny lor.. dun noe y he dun like 2 walk grass leh... when we cut thr e grass ah... spy will walk a bigger round 2 avoid steping on e grass... weird right... maybe he feel bad 2 step on e grass ba... haha...
we finally found a spot 2 sit down... started 2 eat our bread n tibits... at 1st alex kanna e raindrops lor... e rest of us dun haf... suddenly drizzle le... so all of us run 2 e shelter... all of us continue 2 eat our food in e shelter... e rain became heavier n heavier lor... e rain still kanna us even when we in shelter... bangz e bag like doramon lor... got umbrella, got raincoat, got water... so many things lor... go out wif him good lor... need anything can ask frm him... haha...
e rain stop le... but we cant continue our picnic... coz e grass very wet... if sit down very dirty lor... so we decided 2 go other place... but we cant decide where 2 go lor... we thought of going east coast park, changi beach, bowling, play pool... in e end we decided 2 go back my hus...
back 2 my hus... alex, bao bei. tania n mi play mahjong... e rest in my room watch tv or use com... at abt 5pm... spy had 2 go liao... think partly is becoz he quite bored ba... den aft awhile darrell n bao bei oso wanna go home 4 dinner le... so they left le... left alex, bangz, tania n mi... we played 21 points... using e mahjong tiles as our money... stupid lor... but was fun la... e winner was bangz lor... win until so many tiles... den we palyed mahjong... play until we all laugh till crazy lor...
at 10pm... tania got 2 go home le... so we sent her home... den bangz, alex n mi went 2 eat supper... coz we very hungry lor... haven eat dinner... we went 2 srjc there 2 eat.. we eat e teochew porridge... our supper so nutritious... all thanz 2 bangz n alex... they ordered 2 vegetables, 1 meat n 1 egg toufu... yum yum... aft our supper we sit there chit chat... chat until ppl wanna close stall liao... so we pay money n left... we walked 2 kovan mac there... we continue 2 chit chat... chat abt our sec sch life... so many things 2 chat sia... we chat n chat till 4am plus lor... mi very tired le... so we decided 2 go home...
alex n mi walk home 2gether... den bangz walk home alone... mi tired till wanna close eyes n walk lor... alex acc mi till holy pri there... den he walk back home... den i walk home too... finally reach home le... already going 2 5am lor... alex still got a long way 2 walk sia... pity him.. aft i bath i went 2 bed le... coz damn tired... slp till 2day 1pm den wake up... but now still very tired lor... was supposed 2 meet tania at noon... but dun feel like going out so stayed at home...
if can... how i wish i can go back 2 sec sch life... but it is impossible de...
@ 4/13/2007 03:58:00 PM
just now went 4 dinner wif family... we went defu lane there e restaurant... e restuarant name is seafood paradise... e food dmn nice lor... wow... especially e crab... shiok lor... e pepper crab damn spicy... so spicy till my taste bud cant taste other things lor... although very spicy, really enjoy e spciyness... haha...
not only e crab is nice lor... e toufu, yam ring n frog leg oso nice... e yam ring is diff frm other kopitiam de... here e yam ring is wif fruits de... taste very diff frm other yam ring... 1 shld try it if u go there it... some more tis restaurant no gst n service charge lor... save quite alot... will go there again 2 try other dishes... it's worth trying... yummy... 2day's dinner is fantastic...
morning very angry lor... internet n telephone cant use again... yst singtel e ppl cm le... now still got e prob lor... idiot lor... singtel e mio damn sucks... if 2ml continue again like tat ah... going 2 complain liao... sign tis mio got so many prob... singtel should not introduce tis system when they only test 4 only 3months lor... so anxious 2 earn money ah... tehy like tat ah... make it worse lor... stupid singtel...
damn tired... coz 2day wake up at 9am lor... den yst night 2am den slp... gonna slp le... 2ml still haf 2 wake up early too... oh... haf 2 thanz xiao di... thanz 4 chatting wif mi yst... felt better aft chatting wif u... thanz so much... yeah... mama is back... miz u so much even though u r away 4 3 days... gonna meet up wif u soon...
@ 4/11/2007 11:09:00 PM
sian... damn bored... mama went genting liao... so good... wanted 2 go de... but mummy n daddy dun allow lor... so nv go... suddenly miz mama lor... but mama is coming back le... hope she is enjoying her genting trip... going 2 meet up wif her once she is back...
lucky tat bangz n spy came my hus... they had dinner at my hus... n we played cards la... was fun la... at least is not alone at hm... well... ltr in e morning 10am meeting tania 4 breakfast... den 11am meet bao bei, darrell, alex n spy 2 buy things 4 our picnic on thurs... will be baking some cookies... tania wanna play mahjong... hope we can get 2 play...
going 2 haf picnic on thurs at east coast park... currently going r tania, alex, spy, bangz, bao bie, darrell n mi... kah siang haf not confirm... will ask mama... dun noe she wanna go ant... coz she just come back frm genting... organise tis becoz we wanna haf some fun be4 going back 2 sch la... haha... wanna enjoy our last few days of holi...
sch reopen nxt week... timetable sucks... so pack... n i dun like... yr 2 liao... sure tough de... more strict, more ICAs, more things 2 learn, more atatchmnets... haiz... can i stay i yr1? coz yr1 not tat stress... attachment can just act blur... act blur everyday n attachment just pass like tat... dun think yr2 attachment can just act blur lor... well... michelle... face it ba... no point running away frm it...
should i organise a chalet? my aunt got a free 2 days 1 night chalet at pasir ris e coasta sand... she is willing 2 help mi book if i wan... i need suggestion.... should i or not? when shall it be held? bbq or not? any suggestion will do... i need help... all suggestion r welcome...
@ 4/11/2007 01:31:00 AM
last mon till wed went 2 chalet... is sec 5 chalet... at changi there de... e chalet quite big... but abit scary la... opp our chalet is OCH le lor... bangz they all keep on wanna go there at night lor... stupid sia... nothing better 2 do... in e end we nv go la...
chalet quite fun la... i luv it when we went cycling during midnight... wanted 2 cycle frm changi till east coast park de... but we gif up... coz too far le... n olivia cant take it... so we stop at changi airport there... n we headed back... while we headed back ah... we kana stop by police... just nice they were patrolling lor... we kana stop becoz our bicycles dun haf headlights... we were not supposed 2 cycle bicycles at night without headlights... n den e police oso say rent bicycles r only 2 be cycled at park... wad sia... lucky nv get caught by police la... immediately we headed back... scared kana stop by police again...
we den went 2 changi village there eat supper... was fun cycling in e middle of e night lor... but abit dangerous when cycling on e road... wanna go cycling in e middle of e night again leh... actually thought of going pulau ubin druing chalet de... but we all very tired... slp like pig... so nv go... anyway... alex going 2 organise 2 go pulau ubin n overnight... hope all can go...
e buffet food was not bad la... i did not eat much lor... dun noe y cant eat la... was very full e whole day... nv waste food coz e guys midnight went 2 eat it aft there mahjong session... haha... tis time e chalet i 3 days keep n play poker cards lor... wif zhang ge, alex, olivia n kah siang lor... den we keepon bully zhang ge... keep ask him 2 shuffle cards... even if he win... so sorry zhang ge... mi oso got play mahjong la... 1st time is play wif karie, kah siang n olivia ... den i share wif donavan... nv lose money... den 1nd time is play wif donavan, mama n olivia... win 2 bucks... play till my shoulder very pain lor... haf 2 thanz kah siang... he help mi massage n i felt better... thanz kah siang... ur skill not bad... hehe...
there is something tat i dun like abt tis chalet leh... is... I KANA BITE BY ANTS... damn itchy lor... like wad alex say... e ants here r commandors de... worst thing is tat... e ants only bite mi lor... they dun bite e rest lor... only i kana... i too sweet ah? or my blood very tasty? so many ppl at chalet n i m e only 1 got bitten... idiot sia... should haf brought insect repeller... no... nxt time i shall buy e insect patch la... paste on my clothes den wunt kana bite liao... cant stand e itch lor... so many insect bites on my legs n hands...
alot of teachers nv come lor... so sad... they put us areoplane lor... those confirm got come de... in e end all nv come... only ms teo, mrs goh n oso a new teacher... tat's all lor... so disappointed... some more they nv call 2 say they not coming lor... haiz... they busy ba... coz sec sch havig mid-yr... well... is their lost 4 not coming...
haf 2 thanz mama 4 organising tis chalet... oso haf 2 thanz de wei 4 driving mi 2 e chalet... happy 2 sit ur car even though u drive till 'slow n steady'... wunt 4get de... i oso wanna say sorry... sorry 2 mama... coz i nv keep u company during chalet... so sorry... was touch when u sms mi where we r 4 our safety when we went cyclying without telling u... mama thanz 4 everything...
@ 4/10/2007 11:33:00 PM
dar n mi...