yes... my individual presentation is over... tis week left wif BCLS practical exam... still haven got 2 practise my blowing... coz having cough n flu for e past week... 2ml shall go n practise... if not i will fail my BCLS exam...
so sad lor... my mp3 spoil le... just bought a new mp3 for sis... but mine cant hear... worst thing is i no money 2 buy mp3 lor... how i wish some1 can sponsor mi lor... if no1 sponsor mi ah... got 2 save money den buy lor... now shall use hp as mp3... *crying*
nxt week mon no need go sch... but tues got psycho exam... so haf 2 stay at home n study... aft tat can relax n go genting le... dad's purpose of brining us go genting is 2 pray... whereas my purpose of going genting is 2 relax... coz since coming back from attachment... i m so damn stress up... carrying on so stressed up ah... i will break down de... although it is only genting, it's good that i can leave spore... leave tis stressful life...
1st time feeling so stressful lor... o levels tat time nv ever experience stress at all lor... even 2day presenting oso feel stress lor... cant imagine i will feel stress... coz i m tat kind of quite possitive n happy-go-lucky ppl de... it's not tat possible 4 mi 2 feel stress... i will feel stress la... but e percentage upon 100 ah... is like only 10% lor... so tis time i m really damn stress... stress till i feel so 闷 in my heart... dun even noe y i m so 闷...
so tis show tat no matter wad type of ppl ah... they will still feel stress de... it's just tat e level of stress is diff n how they manage it... coz if ppl dun mange their stress well... some may result in depression, high bld pressure n many other health problem... so it'd important 2 manage stress well... seems like i m giving an tok lor... haha...
the feeling of being protected by loved one is so great n wonderful... but it's hard 2 happen on mi...
@ 7/30/2007 10:15:00 PM
just had my BCLS theory test... all r mcqs ques... only 30 ques... but it's very tricky lor... haf 2 score at least 80% den can pass lor... it's e same as not having more than 6 wrong ques... hope i can pass... dun wish 2 repeat tis theory...
finish psycho project le... luckily we manage 2 change e format at a very last min... change it in e morning n present it in e afternoon... lecturer commented tat our project was well done lor... so unbelievable... really haf 2 thanz our senior... if not for him telling us how 2 do ah... think we r unable 2 complete tis project n do it correctly... anyway... big thanz 2 him...
haiz... life seems so sian ever since sch reopen... these few days e brain like not working at all lor... all my brain cells r dead due 2 psycho project... i now offically announce my brain is dead...
2day i 4gt 2 bring hp 2 sch lor... so sad sia... seems weird without my hp lor... cant play games... cant contact frenz... cant contact parents... it's like unable 2 communicate wif any1... shall not 4gt 2 bring hp from now onwards... coz i dun like e feeling... hu ask mi 2 remember it only when i reach bus stop... if i remember earlier ah... i m able 2 go back hus 2 take le...
wad i wanna do now is just relax... but cant relax at all... so many things r still undone... my patient education project not done... haven practise enough for my BCLS practical exam... haven study 4 psycho exams... haven study 4 semestral exams... how can i possibly rest in peace... haiz... *so stress up*
WANNA GET OUT OF TIS WORLD... EVEN IF IT IS ONLY FOR A MIN... JUST ONE MIN... CAN I?
@ 7/25/2007 11:06:00 PM
everything sucks... nothing seems 2 go well when sch reopen... so sick n tired of psycho project... tis project is so last min work... started tis project yst n got 2 present 2day... dun noe wad theroy 2 use... dun noe wad our teacher wans... dun noe wheather e article we choose can support our theory... dun noe tis dun noe tat... so pissed off lor... tis is e 1st every project tat we do until our heads going 2 burst le... wadever la... nature vs nurture... cant we just conclude our project n say tat both r EQUALLY IMPORTANT... isn't tat wonderful... like tat no need 2 kill so many of our brain cells le...
having flu n cough... so idiotic... finish attachment but i kana sick... wad e use of finishing attachment... being sick n need 2 go back 2 sch is not much diff than going attachments... worst thing is nxt week BCLS practical exam... n 2ml is BCLS theory exam... but 4 2ml e exam can dun really study la... coz 2ml e theory exam is mcqs n oso on scenerio de... so as long as can remember practical e skills... can ans e ques le...
so scared fail BCLS pratical exam lor... coz i really dun wish 2 retake e exam... wad's more is tat olivia n karie manage 2 pass lor... i cant possibly fail lor... is like since they can pass, y cant i? so i must really practise my BCLS skills as many times as posible... like tat i m much more confident in passing e practical exams...
exams r coming soon le lor... although only haf 3 modules 2 take... these 3 modules r very heavy lor... if dun study ah... sure will fail de... lucky got abt 1week 4 mi 2 study be4 exams... some more i haf joy 2 acc mi 2 study... coz she will be staying in my hus... my parents charge her e rental fees very cheap lor... 50bucks only lor... very cheap sia... but she need 2 teach my sis n daryl their work la... ensure that they will study n score for their exams... so from now onwards... i m joy's landlord... like wad ping say... "lady of e landlord"... haha...
@ 7/24/2007 01:08:00 PM
yes... my 3 weeks of attachments r finally over... dun need so tired n stress le... can relax le... but 2ml got 2 go back sch le... oso very sian ah... how i wish is holi lor... den can slack at home...
tis time attachment quite stress la... coz so scared CI will come find mi n ask mi tis ask mi tat lor... everyday go attachment ah... will try my best 2 avoid her if possible... i did not manage 2 gif any injection... not even insulin lor... so sad... den i saw very gross n bloody wound at e perineal area lor... i was feeling pain 4 e patient when my frenz was cleaning e wound lor... gosh... luckily gave him an injection of painkillers be4 helping him cleaning e wound... if not he will pain till he cry lor...
went 2 hougang mall 4 breakfast wif sis... aft tat went 2 make contact lens... i only need 2 wear 1 side of e contact lens... coz e contact lens dun haf my left eye's degree... oso good la... can save money... haha...
@ 7/22/2007 07:44:00 PM
yeah... finally finish 1 week of attachment at TTSH ward 11C... which is general surgery ward... attachment always so tired de lor... especially my legs... stand till leg very pain... feel e best when i can sit down... haha...
my CI us ttsh de lor... e joanna... she very e strict towards us lor... coz she wanna prepare us 4 yr 3... den she expect us 2 do 30 drug cards in our ward stock... expect us 2 noe e medications of all e patients in our cubicle... n oso refresh all our clinical skills... is like everyday go attachment not go work... go study de lor... attachment so tired n not enough slp le... still got 2 do homework... so sian...
we everyday must watch out 4 her... coz u dun noe when she will pop in e ward n ask u ques abt our patients... 2day i already being asked abt my patients... lucky my cubicle left wif 4 patients... so she nv asked so much... i managed 2 ans all her ques... just tat i will take a longer time 2 think as most of e things i 4gt le... den joanna thought i nervous lor... i m not lor... it's just tat i cant recall la... think i got "stm" (short term memory)... haha...
1 of my patients went home 2day... another go amk rehab hospital 2 strengthen her muscle spasm... good 4 them... but sad 2 mi... coz there will be new patients n i got 2 start 2 understand them right from e start... very sian de... but no choice la... sure there will be patients going home n new patients admit in these 3 weeks... but from nxt week onwards abit slack la... got new batch of graduate staff nurses reporting 2 work... they will hep out too... den we can relax le...
sis bday on mon... dun noe wad 2 buy 4 her leh... maybe her present will not gif her on time... coz these few days too busy le... so no time 2 buy... worst thing is i dun haf anything on mind 2 buy 4 her... headache...
left 2 more weeks of attachment... faster nxt wed... going shs (sch health services)... will not be going 2 ttsh... shs nothing 2 do de... just help e nurses wif simple simple things can le... hehe... parents organising genting trip on national day... coming back on sat... dun noe fri e health psycho got lecture or not lor... thik dun haf... if haf i will skip lecture... hope we will be able 2 book e coach 2 genting... *fingers-crossed*
life is unpredictable... nv ever try 2 predict e future... it's impossible...
@ 7/06/2007 05:40:00 PM
